So I’ve always been attracted to black or light skin boys. (I’m white) like ALWAYS my first crush in 2nd grade was black. And my family never rly said anything except my grandad but he is rly old fashioned. But I was never allowed to go to their house or hang out much with them like at all. I showed attraction to ONE white boy and we dated for 9 days. (Black boys just feel right yk) and in those 9 days I went to his house 3 days in a row in one weekend I went on school nights we were left home alone and we went a lot of places. In 9 days. After we broke up which was 2 days ago. I told my dad how my bsf only likes black boys too. He said you better not be like that. I said why? He said bc I said so do you know how many people in our family have been ruined bc they got involved with the wrong ppl? I said yes and some of which were white! He said not those ppl. Taylor and Brooke and stuff. Black boys ruined their lives now they are on drugs. I said that’s not the race that’s the person. That doesn’t mean the race is bad it was that person they just don’t know how to pick em. I wouldn’t be with someone like that. He said do what you want *my name* but you won’t be doing anything with him till your 18. I said whatever dad and walked away.

But you see this is my prob. I left the white guy bc I still love my ex. My ex is light skin. And I LOVE HIM. We are getting back together soon he is everything I want and treats me amazing. We broke up for some other reasons which was NY fault and are resolved. But I won’t be able to see him at all the only way I saw him before was going places with friends. What do I do? And plz don’t comment on the break up and 9day part that’s a whole nuther story I’m aware I did some crappy hoeish things but I can explain that later.