Weigh in anxiety

Every time I go to the OB the weigh in part gives me SO MICH ANXIETY that I can’t even enjoy myself. I feel so ashamed of the weight I’ve gained, and so terrified of how much I might have gained. It steals my joy. And if it were as easy as “just don’t let it bother you” “your body is doing amazing things” then I would have already done that, so I don’t want to hear that shit. Anyone else experiencing or have experienced this??

EDIT: thank you for all the encouragement ♥️♥️♥️