I’m 17 and I’ve been dating this boy for about 3 months and he’s my first boyfriend. I’m usually a distant person and I don’t really talk about my feelings to people so my boyfriend and I have never had a serious conversation and we’re actually really boring. We haven’t made out yet or done anything which I’m not expecting anything sexually but we’ve kissed a few times and it’s probably just we but anytime he goes in for the kiss I get awkward and back away EVEN THOUGH it’s not my first time kissing him. I don’t know I’m generally a very sassy and moody person and I’m very surprised that my boyfriend hasn’t broken up with me yet because I’m so distant and kind of like an awful girlfriend like for real we’ve only hung out once since we started dating and I just don’t know what to do because I like this boy a lot and he’s my first boyfriend and he treats me right and puts up with my mood swings and he’s so sweet and he’s so hot and literally perfect but our relationship is just so boring and weird I’m scared to talk to him about him because I don’t open up about that stuff really to anyone I really just need advice on what to do