Hi girls! I’m really struggling right now and very disappointed in my body. I had a miscarriage in 2017 and got pregnant with my daughter 3 months later. Everything was good until 29 weeks, I woke up bleeding and had to rush to the hospital. Basically they said my cervix was weak and I was placed on bed rest. I didn’t deliver until 39 weeks but it was so hard not working to provide for us. I did get maternity leave early because of this but I got so little. Everything was deemed as normal after. I did have precipitous labour, only a couple short hours of labour so I started to hemorrhage but they got it together quickly. Now I’m 19 weeks again and just started bleeding. The thing is my baby’s placenta wasn’t even attached at 13 weeks and I was told that’s okay. I don’t even know if it’s attached yet, I’ll find out Monday. They’re thinking my cervix is very weak or there might be something else wrong. So basically I’ll never have a normal, worry free pregnancy. I’ll always be high risk. If this baby makes it, should I even try for a third in a few years? I feel like it’d be bad for my mental health and physical health. But I’ve always wanted 3. Has anyone gone through this with multiple pregnancies? Is it bad to want to put my body and future baby through this again? I’m so lost. I just need some advice.