My anxiety and depression can get really bad. I start to have irrational thoughts that I know are irrational but I just can't help myself, can't stop those thoughts. I'm So anxious I feel like throwing up. My bf isn't answering messages. I sent only one tho. I don't want to be crazy gf and Spam him. He's probably just playing games with friends. But what if he isn't, what if he is actually cheating on me? Maybe he cheats whenever I'm away? I did gain weight. And I know he isn't but I still think that. Maybe he's ex came. Maybe that's why he said it's okay to go...

Edit: thank you to the one person that was actually nice to me about this. 😁 Saying "go get theraphy" doesn't help the Situation, it just makes me feel even more like I'm crazy. 😒