Is it normal to dislike my mom, but still love her? I’m 20.

My mom has always been physically and verbally abusive to me as a child, she called it discipline but I didn’t think so. Now that I’m older it’s more so verbal abuse. I’m not the biggest saint however I am a good daughter, I’m in a university, I work and I rarely go out. She always put me down and she try’s to restrict me from doing things that I love to do, shes very controlling and I can’t stand it. I feel as though I am trapped until I’m able to move out and I feel as though me being in the house makes me a little depressed, she goes weeks without speaking to me when she’s mad and she’s just petty overall. There’s more to the story but I just would like to know is it normal for me to strongly dislike her and feel the way I do towards her. I hate being in her presence I get so annoyed. I love my mom of course, but I honestly can’t stand her.