He gave me herpes??

My boyfriend cheated on me back in Feb and she gave him genital herpes. I had no idea he apparently didn’t know either. And well. Now I am stuck with genital herpes forever. I feel so disgusted with myself. Not to mention the amount of pain I am in. I am covered in blisters unable to move. Peeing is so painful. It’s day 5 of my outbreak and this feels like hell. How do I live like this? I started medication yesterday from my Dr.

Does anyone of you have genital herpes? What’s some advice you can give?

Is my fertility at risk?? Please help me here.