trigger warning for some?

i need some help. i am 16 years old and THINK i have what is called an eating disorder. i really don’t want to google it because that just makes things worse. it went away for a while and then came back. i feel guilty whenever i eat no matter what i eat. i could eat vegetables all day and still feel guilty. i get in a bad mood after i eat cause i feel like i did something wrong. i just weighed in at 100 pounds for the first time and now i hate myself even more. my body image plays a BIG role on my mood. i get bloated after i eat anjybing. i could eat a single grape and still get bloated. i tell myself i dont like certain foods (donughts, pizza, candy, etc) so i will avoid them. i hate my body and try to avoid eating a lot of the time. i usually eat 2 meals a day. i hate eating in front of people.