Hi guys!

Before getting pregnant i was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and i used to have major panick attacks.

As soon as i learned i was pregnant i quitted taking meds. And i was doing really well.

Untill corona..

I live in Turkey, my husband is a psychologist and he works at the hospital. He called in sick for a couple days to be with me as i was having some attacks but he has to go to work tomorrow and i am so scared.

My way of coping is smoking, and i’ve been smoking for a long time and couldn’t quit although i’m pregnant. Please don’t judge me please...

I’ve been having these crazy thoughts, “do i have the virus? What if my husband gets it at work? What if someone i love dies? What if my parents or sister or niece get it? What if they die? Am i short of breath? Do i have fever?” and so much more...

My heart pounds and i feel like i can’t breathe and i’m dying...

Tomorrow i’ll be alone at home untill my husband comes back from work but im so scared of having an attack while he’s gone that even the thought makes me panic.

People keep telling me to think positive but how can i? People are dying.. And i just can’t take it.

Im self quarantining, im not going out and it makes me lose it a little too..

Please don’t say “corona virus is not that bad” or something. It is bad. Really bad.

I just want to know if anyone else is in the same situation as im in. I feel so alone and helpless..