Since I was about 18/19 (27 now) I realized that I was attracted to women. I’ve always been in relationships with men. There was a time when I was closer to 19/20, when I was single, that I had a dating app to find a “friend with benefits” that would involve me being with a girl. I talked to a good handful , some never got further than “hi” and casual conversation. One or two actually seemed to be going somewhere but, never got around to hooking up.

Fast forward to now, I have been battling for years the desire to at least be sexual with a woman once. Maybe twice (I don’t know how shy or reserved I would be the first time) I watch porn , mostly from the lesbian category. It just doesn’t seem like enough to fulfill what I want. I just feel like I do not know how to even be like “hey, I’ve never done this , I want to , but I don’t want to feel stupid for not doing it right” I truly don’t want to even offend someone , but I want the experience & the level of comfort to do it with someone I can trust, since I may suck the first time 😂

Hope I’m making sense. 😥