Dealing with a loss

I feel very abnormal sometimes..

Like I already fear when we would lose someone we really care for.

Because I can appear very apathetic abouth it.

I honestly feel like death is a part of life and it's sad when it's too soon... And even though I would deal with loss by just missing the person and thinking about them..

I always feel like the normal thing is to cry or be at a complete loss.. And I don't feel that.. I don't feel that neediness of needing to have them alive.. To make me so sad about it for me to be at a complete loss..

I mean.. I would with my partner or my child.. But like.. My parents or siblings or my partner's parents or siblings.. I don't know...

Anyone else feels this way?