Not out

So I'm bi or pan.

I'm dating a boy tho he know I'm this way. I love him he get me off but so do girls.

But anyhow. I dont think I ever be able to come out to my family.

They always joke round about me being gay. I was raised old school so my dad dont believe in gay and stuff and also dont believe in white and color being together.

It hurts me everytime they joke about it. I want just yell that I'm bi but its scary. Idk if I lose my family or not.

Any advice on what I could do or ways to not be hurt??