Husband checked out

I was very “lucky” (for someone who lives in the states) to have my husband home with me for the first 8 weeks of our daughter’s life and during that time he was pretty amazing. Almost my equal, truly. But ever since he went back to work it’s as if he has completely checked out of parenting. I swear he almost forgot how to change a freaking diaper until I begged him to gimme a break and change one. It’s not like he works particularly long hours, or even has a commute since he is working from home during the quarantine. But when he’s not working he’s “pursuing his interests.” He goes running, writes in his stupid fucking journals for what seems like hours, reads novels. The other day he made a sandwich for himself and ate it in front of me while I nursed. I can barely find the time to shower. I go back to work in a few more weeks, and I just know that I’ll still be the only one of us thinking about the baby and spending every minute of my time outside of work taking care of her. I’m especially pissed off right now because I’ve been up since her 3am feeding with insomnia even though she and he are fast asleep next to me and I just know today is gonna suck and he won’t lift a finger to help me.