Begging To Be Induced

I am forever grateful to have this amazing rainbow baby. I am so excited and just filled with pure joy to have my second child/boy#2. However... this has been one of the most painful experiences of my life!!!

I am 36 weeks pregnant and have had preterm labor symptoms since 30 weeks pregnant. Have been stress tested multiple times, all coming back positive for preterm labor. My contractions are so bad, I can't walk or talk through them and I break down and cry. I can hardly breathe because he's pushing up on my lungs and I can't sleep because I'm so far along and breathing issues.

With the Coronavirus going around, they're trying to push labor off, as long as possible. My cervix is only dialated 1cm and I'm 30% effaced so until my water breaks, the hospital won't do anything.

I cannot take this pain any longer. I'm absolutely miserable. I understand that it's better for baby to be inside as long as possible but being in this much pain can't be healthy for him either.

At this point I am begging to be Induced. I'm seriously struggling. I stay in bed most the day and just cry. I am at a breaking point where I never want to do this ever again. My husband feels helpless and constantly asks if there's anything he can do but sadly there isn't.

I have another doctors appointment on Friday and hoping there is something they can do. Induce or give me something to help ease the pain. I am trying to hold out as long as I can for my son but it's affecting my other son, seeing me in this much pain. I can tell he's struggling with it too. I wish this was easier. My first pregnancy was a breeze and didnt have any issues. I need relief. I need a break. I need sleep. I'd take an hour if I could. I feel like I'm going out of my mind.

Is there anyone else out there feeling the same? Any advice? Feeling pretty desperate and alone right now.