I’m delusional. I feel like I’m in the twilight zone. I have a 1 week and 3 day old baby. He’s beyond perfect. But I’m struggling. I’m struggling to take care of myself. I’m struggling to eat. I’m struggling to remaining calm after his circumcision today. He either won’t wake up to eat or he’ll wake up screaming bloody murder until he has some milk. It’s been 3 hours since he last fed he should be ready to eat but after screaming for 5 mins he’s passed out and wants nothing to do with my boob. It’s probably time to change his diaper again which gives me an anxiety attack because despite what everyone says I think it hurts him to get his diaper changed. He screams so bad it breaks my heart. He’s been such a calm baby and never has cried this much since I’ve had him. I don’t have much support. Even my biggest supporter my boyfriend doesn’t understand. He’s frustrated with me which makes everything worse. I just want to sleep.