I’m currently 6 weeks pregnant with my first child with my boyfriend who is extremely abusive and tells me everyday how he wants me and the baby to die. He beats me and makes me starve myself because I’m getting bloated and he makes me feel disgusting and fat everyday. He’s punched me and spit on me and gave me black eyes and bruises. I’ve left him many times, even before I was pregnant but I love him so I always come back to him. He’s chocked me to the point where I would black out and become unconscious. He tells me that he won’t let go of me til I stop breathing. I try to leave and even get him help but he refuses and calls me names and says that I always try to change who he is. I’m afraid to leave because I don’t want him to come find me and kill me. I love him dearly and I know what he’s doing isn’t good for me or our baby but I love him and want to keep our family together.