Playing with emotions

My SO and I have talked about wanting children, he has 2 kids already and he knows I want a baby soooooo bad.

These last 2 weeks he has not been pulling out, so I was under the impression he was ready to start trying. We had agreed December was when we would start... well today after doin the deed he pulled out. When I asked him why he said he dosent want a baby right now...

It legit hurt my heart to hear that. So now I'm emotional and confused as to why he would start something like that and get my Hope's up for nothing😔