Guilty

I’ve recently been diagnosed with HSV-2 and it’s really put a strain on me. I feel incapable of pursuing a relationship because I’m ashamed. Guys flirt with me and I feel bad when I flirt back because I know they wouldn’t deal with me if they knew I had HSV-2. I just think that would be a complete deal breaker like ew no way. I hate that I feel like this but I know that would literally be some guys’ reaction. I really wished to have a child one day but I don’t think I’d find someone who’d be willing to accept the risk of contracting the disease. I wouldn’t want my child to contract it from me either. I wouldn’t forgive myself. I know people can have perfectly healthy children but I don’t even want to take that chance.