Well December 2019 I got the 10 days of provera to started my monthly back up, skipped 2 months (dr says normal after having baby in April 2019) since then I’ve had my period more than being off of my period. (Dr says normal after those meds) talked to dr in mid March cause I started 6th of March but hadn’t stopped (normal period was 7/9days) this time was much longer. Still not off of it!! (Day 36 of period) well when I talked to dr in mid March she sent in bc pills said that was the only option and to give up trying for a 3rd baby. That it would be highly unlikely and rare I would ever get pregnant on the pills and if I stopped them after getting regulated that I had maybe 2-3 months to try to get pregnant and would be unlikely I would get pregnant before I would just start bleeding and never stopping (like now). I have 2 kids now never had problems now all the sudden I can’t have anymore! I’m devastated!!! 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 I feel like I just had everything ripped out of me. I’ve been on bc pills for 3 weeks and just feel horrible not to mention still on my period too. Each day everything just gets harder to deal with. Idk what to do anymore.

And with everything going on in the world we can’t really go all out for my daughters first bday! 💔💔😭😭 and of it being one of her last first I wanna just make it the best thing ever (even though she won’t remember) especially now that she will be my last baby 😭😭😭💔💔💔

And I feel like I have no one I can really talk too. I would love to tell my mom but she is dead. My mother in law would just judge and be like I told you to get your tubes tied after her. (She kept bringing it up while I was pregnant with my daughter) ughh