Due date is coming up and I’m conflicted

Let me just start with saying that all moms are badass no matter how they give birth. I am 18 y’all. The worst pain I’ve had in my life are period cramps. Now I know how much those hurt and how I barely handle them and actually get light headed and nauseous. But this is birth. I’m at 31 weeks and every single day I’m thinking “What the hell am I going to do?” My first thought when labor and delivery came to mind was EPIDURAL. But then again I know that being on your back for delivery is not very beneficial for me or baby but the only way to not be on your back is an all natural birth which means no epidural. I am a pansy y’all. I am terrified of pain. There’s no way around this though. This baby is coming out of me either way. I just want to do what’s best for my son. I don’t want to feel pain but I’d rather feel it all than risk his safety or health but what if I pass out from the pain? I know that this may sound ridiculous and immature but I mean especially with all the Covid-19 going on, I’m completely dumbfounded when I hear that women are doing all natural at home births. Every woman is strong but how the hell do I do this. I haven’t even taken a single class and all the advice I’ve gotten from my mom is “It’s gonna hurt!” No shit mom of course it is. Thanks if you read my rant. Any and all opinions, tips, stories are welcome. Not looking to be judged but I’m sure I’ll get some lols from y’all reading this because I sound like a frightened child.