I always have constant fear. I fear every day about death and I have horrible anxiety attacks/panic attacks that cause me to get extremely shakey and feel like I can't breathe.... I want to curl up in a ball sometimes and cry... I'm currently 7 months pregnant and I only just told my doctor how I am feeling about a month ago (I've had this problem most of my life) because I have always been embarrassed of my anxiety and the only people who know about this is my close family(my mom has severe anxiety too and is treated for it).... I can't go on any medication for it right now due to being pregnant and I can't get counseling right now due to the pandemic.... (Which isn't helping the anxiety) I can't even sleep most nights and hold onto my husband while he sleeps because he makes me feel a bit more secure.... I don't know what to do right now to help it. I have been meditating and trying breathing exercises but it's not helping really well and I honestly feel bad that my husband has to deal with me like this... ☹️ Sorry for the long post, I just needed to get this off my chest.