Ok I'm going to try to keep it short n sweet . my child's father left to another state the end of February , his cousin had given us a car so he went to go get it and drive it back. Covid-19 happens roads were closing he got stuck , I didn't see him the whole month of March he just made it here about 4 days ago .. previously he cheated on me before and iknew he wasn't gonna be faithful to me while he was out there but somehow he kind of convinced me but I never fully trusted his word I DIDNT check his phone at all even tho I knew his password , I wanted to give him the benefit of doubt . About 2 days in our son was on his phone playing a game and a messaged came my son clicked it and asked me to put the game back on , I read the text not intentionally at first but I did have to look at the screen . A girl texts him saying why didn't he tell her about a gf about a baby , he's still entertaining her messages , I go through his pics see many more messages of girls he deleted from his phone . Screenhots of him ft the girl he cheated on me with , I just sent them all to my phone and didn't say a word . Im tired of crying tired of thinking he's changed fuck him !! I see he has seriously problems and I've been wanting to leave for years now but he keeps me around somehow . We live together with a two year old , AND I'm pregnant I'm so sad feeling , I do not want another child by this man but here I am due October . We share our current money I have no job stuck in the house with him . I'm feeling some type of way and he can't even see it ! I'm through with him but I don't wanna argue I don't want to hear any excuses I want things to be "normal" I don't want him to know I know what he did . He still tries to play with me kiss me but I just can't fake it he disgusts me . I don't want him to ask me what's wrong and I have nothing to say. I really want to lie and "confess" I cheated on him while he was away so he'll just leave me alone What can I do ???????

EDIT : we live with his mother , I have NO family let alone friends in this state or even back home ! My mom died when I was an infant , my dad is TOXIC ASF just like my "bf" . I've always been alone , I clung to him and his mom because she took me in when I had nobody , but overall this relationship has been horrible. 5 long years. I'm feeling real stuck and in a hole. There's no where else either one of us can go. Yes I plan to leave and get my own place but that will take a while with this lockdown going on . How can I manage to live with him even I do tell him about the stuff I saw and then I don't want to make it noticable were fighting to his mom .