pregnancy after a miscarriage really makes me more anxious about every little thing but also makes me feel like if i have any feeling of love towards this baby that im betraying my Angel in heaven. i lost my baby boy at 18 weeks 3 years ago and i am currently 17 weeks with my rainbow baby. its making me anxious the closer i get to 18 weeks and i just feel really helpless because i dont want to be scared for a miscarriage i dont want to be putting that negative energy out there so i keep trying to be positive. It just seems hard to be happy about being pregnant after losing a baby.