So my boyfriend of 1.5 years and I broke up. Although it was mutual, it was because I think I’ve lost feelings. He said he’s still in love with me and it happy to wait for me to figure out what I need and to work on myself. I am sad but not the type of sad where I’m in bed crying endlessly. I have been doing lots of research about how to know if you let the right one go etc. When reading the sites, I agree with all the points theyre making (agree I shouldn’t of let him go) but I can’t help but feel I might be thinking of him as just a friend, but I know I can see me still curled up in his bed watching movies and me sitting next to the campfire with him.

I can’t stand the thought of him being with another girl and I have been stalking where he is on snapmaps and when he was last active on social media. The past few times I’ve seen him I can’t help but think damn you look good - where in the past I havent really thought that.

I’m just so unsure what to do. I don’t want to keep getting our hopes up for it not to work out again. How do I know if I like him as a friend or as a partner? I’m just a big mess right now and theres so much going through my head, but my gut isnt telling me anything at all.