I just need to vent! F*** irregular periods

I have been off birth control for almost a year. And my period is late now ( which hasn’t happened in a while). And every day that my period is late I’m hopeful that this will be the day that a little tiny positive sign shows up and I can breathe again. But no, no positive sign. No plus signs or yes’s or happy faces. Nothing. Like I’m stuck in a purgatory. I’m going on a 2 weeks late for my period and I just want an answer, whether it be congratulations or I’m sorry we have decided to go another route. Of course hubby is clueless as to how I would feel this way. Not that he doesn’t care but it’s just the fact men are wired differently and do not read into things as much as women. (Any women that say they don’t read into things, you’re wrong) it’s just frustrating to go through and have your friends get pregnant without even trying. Anyways welcome to my talk. Just needed to get it off my chest.