Feel guilty

I been so sick the past couple weeks an I feel horrible I haven’t been cooking & hardly cleaning I can’t stand the smell of anything right now. An also I can’t even stomach the thought of sex the other day my husband woke up with “morning wood” an I was in the living an he made a suggestion I should fix that problem for him an pulled it out NOW usually I’d be all over that but in the moment I got a nasty feeling in my belly ! like oh god even dick looks nasty lmaoo I need this 1st trimester to hurry up an go. I want my life back I mean grow lil baby grow but damn man I’m so sick ☹️😩🤢