1st appointment

Jul

I have my first ultrasound tomorrow I should be 6w 3 days. I’m so scared I don’t even want to go, I have only found out I miscarried via ultrasounds two times already. I want to go to be reassured but I also don’t want to know anything. I wish I could fast forward and be able to stop worrying and be holding my baby. I feel like I now have ptsd, when an ultrasound is supposed to be the most exciting part