How is everyone else feeling? I know everyone is coping in their own way during this quarantine, some are thriving, being more productive than ever, others not so much. I’m afraid I’ve been weak and I fall under the latter group. Right before the quarantine started I was on a path of reaching my fitness goals for the first time in my life, hitting the gym, clean and healthy diet, slowly but surely, and putting in a lot of hard work to make sure this time I will align my body with my goals.

Then quarantine happened and even though it should have not affected me at all, it has wreaked havoc on my body and emotional well-being. It’s like I flipped a switch and everything went wrong. Diet gone bye bye, binge eating on everything and barely working out.

I guess I just wanted to share it here and say it out loud somehow. I feel like I need some form of help, but I don’t know how to ask for it and how could even help me... I know (in the back of my mind) that I can be the only one that can help me and that I have to get my shit together, but at the same time, I can’t be bothered. What is wrong with me? How can I care about and be affected by this so much and yet refuse to take any form of action? I just honestly don’t know what to do anymore...