Alright, this going to be kind backhanded so I expect some negative responses but 😂 my cousin just had a baby. Like 3 hrs ago. And while I’m extremely happy for her and I’m glad both her and baby are well; I have to admit I’m a little envious.

Some backstory: I was pregnant from August to October 2018, 10 week scan showed electrical pulse (I’m assuming brain activity? I wasn’t really told) but no heartbeat. My cousin at the time was doing multiple different drugs and had suffered a miscarriage as well. SO and I have been TTC since with no success, but she cleans up, stops doing all the drugs (again, very happy she’s cleaned up her life and she’s living a healthy lifestyle, I want what’s best for her and her baby) and she gets pregnant almost right away.

Like I said I am happy for her genuinely, just a little envious, I wish the child I lost could be here.

And for those that read this and wonder: a healthy little girl born 7AM Freya Fae 🧚