Tell me it gets better...

Me and my hubby have been together for 4 years. Since we were in high school and currently have a one year old together. We’ve all we’ve ever known. We’ve hit a very rough patch... and it’s been hell the last 4 months. He’s become distant and hateful...

He says things to me to put me down a lot. He tells me I’m worthless and not good enough. He says all this out of anger and during fights. He calls me a bitch and tells me there’s lots of other girls out there that want him and he wishes I was like them. He tells me he doesn’t love me anymore and then takes it back. He punches walls and slams doors.

It makes me hate myself. Like it’s so hard. He’s my life you know and I keep saying I’m gonna try and I’m gonna try but it’s killing me... I feel hopeless and like I’m suffocating. I don’t have a job. I’m a sahm.. Im only 19 and most of everything is in his name. We have an apartment together too. I’m just hurting. I don’t want to let go but I cant hold on anymore. I want my daughter to have the happiest parents. I want her to be around her dad and grow up seeing him all the time..

I’ve had a lot of trouble loving myself. I’ve gained a massive amount of weight since having my daughter and he makes me feel like Im never going to find anyone else to love me..

This is so hard for me. Then this whole fucking pandemic is making things 10x harder.

I just need some words of positivity and some advice on what to do...

Thank you in advance.