I need some advice

So I recently started seeing someone new and we’ve slept together a few times and recently the conversation of body count came up. Now I don’t mind telling my number because I feel like it’s a good way to explain my anxiety behind sex. I’m not very experienced and being able to explain that and talk about it would definitely help with my anxiety. But my boyfriend doesn’t want to talk about it, which is fine.

He said: “I don't really think body count is something needed to be discussed, I'm not worried about who came before, and I don't want to be thinking about it at all. All I care about is you and making a stable relationship of us.”

And I think he makes a really good point. I understand where he’s coming from, but at the same time it’s something that I’m curious about. Obviously I’m not going to force him to tell me because if he wanted to he would, and his number won’t change the way I think about him anyway.

I guess the advice I need is just how to not let the not knowing get to me. Because not knowing makes my mind wander and think that he’s been with a lot of people and is super experienced and I’m not so he won’t enjoy sex with me. And I realize that’s ridiculous because he’s choosing me so obviously I don’t have anything to worry about, but at the same time my anxiety is just eating up my mind. 🙃