Run away?

Its started when I was about 9, i saw him for the first time after moving to a new school. He was a grade above me. His brown eyes sparkled like the ocean. He was GEORGOUS. We became friends an i quickly fell for him. Everyone knew, my older brother being the asshole he is picked out me an got everyone else to do it to. We eventually stopped talking because everyone around made fun of us... We still saw each other everyday. Fluttering butterflys still filled my stomach for the next 3 years. Then i moved again... My life went to shit. An i thought time an time again about him wondering how he was.... Life went on. We both had kids. I had gotten married an i had decided to divorce my husband because he is a compulsive liar, an he started sneaking out w my cousin after i went to bed. A month an a half after my decision. He messaged me. We talked an became so close so fast. I hadnt filed for divorce yet an he said hed been lied to before. He ended up saying he didnt want me in his life an... We went 3 an a half weeks without talking. During that time i was finally able to get the money for a lawyer (Thank you Trump lol) An file. Noncontested. Which means he wants a divorce to. We have 90 daus before its finalized.

We both know with his issues, we are better off as friends. Anyway back to the guy... He messaged me randomly after that time an said the stupidest thing. It's been like a week now we've talked everyone day an ran into each other once. I love this man. But situationaly I can't be a him... I need therapy time to heal, so I don't project my issues on to him. An i know thats good. I know it'll be ok... But I think he feels the same. Why talk to someone you don't want in your life? I think he seperated himself because I was married. Maybe I've found my love story? Maybe I should just run away? Maybe I read to much into it... But... We shall see. My story isnt over yet.❤