ANOTHER YEAR

Of feeling shitty because this is yet again another MOTHERS DAY I don’t get to participate in 😞.. tbh this is the one holiday I’ll HATE until I get to be a mommy. It’s so fucking hard not to stress and think about it when there’s literally ALWAYS a great big fucking reminder that you STILL don’t have what you want — the one thing I want more than anything and my body refuses to do it and I have no one to talk to other than my boyfriend about my feelings in all this but then again from a females perspective I can’t expect him to understand everything ... especially how hurt I am that he gets to be a dad and I still am not a part of that itself.. also kind of why I hate Father’s Day because I don’t have any kids for him to be a father to or father of ... smh I’m one lonely ass female with so much to cry about 😒😒😢😭