He told me he has herpes....

So I’ve been dating this guy for two months. He is wonderful. We are in love. Never fails, from moment one of having sex until now, he always wears a condom from the very first point of penetration until. I am okay with this because I do not want anymore kids and neither does he. I’ve been waiting for Covid-19 to lift to see my obgyn about birth control meds but until then we’ve used condoms. Last night I told him once I’m effectively on birth control we can go without the condoms but he looks at me strangely and says “no think we should still use them”...👀 ok... so it raised a red flag in me. I said well I’m clean which I imagine you already know this lol and he just watched me stone faced but didn’t say a word so I got defensive thinking he was silently questioning this about me bc he has absolutely no reason in this world to assume that i could have something. After a few moments he jumped up and got really awkward. I became concerned and told he was freaking me out. Finally he looked at me and said “I have genital herpes but I take the viral meds daily and we always use protection.” I was dumbfounded and in shock as if I went temporarily deaf. What’s worse is he let me give him oral sex once and didn’t stop me. What the hell! Of course it’s a no go now and I can’t be with him is what I feel but then again my heart will be broken bc I love this man and he loves me. I asked him why he didn’t tell me and he said he felt like he would be able to keep me safe but then fell so much in love he then became selfish and didn’t want to lose me. I became furious and said this could be life altering for me if I have it and how dare you not tell me and let me decide which you know I would’ve not gone there with you. Today I am so scared and hurt and confused and I just need some words from you ladies about what you all think. Happy Mother’s Day btw 😩