Mental Health

Anyone else just feeling really overwhelmed? I've just start week 25, and it's just feeling really overwhelming. I feel like I'm avoiding even looking at the baby's furniture, avoiding developing a bond with him, just like there's this disconnect between us. My bf is super excited, getting the cot built and putting the pram together, he wants to take the pram 'for a test drive' around the block later but like I can't even bring myself to look at it, yet along push it. I feel like I've failed as a mum already. Its going to sound so fucking awful, but I'm not excited for him to be here. I don't feel that 'love' or bond with him. I'm terrified. I feel like my bf and baby deserve the best, and I've ruined it for them. We can't afford to move out so baby is going to spend the start of his life cramped into my bedroom with me and my bf in my parents house. I wanted to give him his own room, his own space, in our own home, that was how it was supposed to happen. My bf works in a job he hates, and I know everyone's going to say 'thats just life' but I feel like it's my fault. If we didn't have the baby, he could have moved jobs, or gone to uni properly, but now he can't. I try to talk to people, but it's met with 'just wait until xyz' and all I can't think is please stop. Make this stop. I want out now. I don't want this anymore, I'm terrified of not being good enough for him and fucking him up. I feel like a failure, as a girlfriend and as a mum. I'm trying to do it all right but I just end up in bed crying. Idk what to do anymore