I just don’t know

I’m 14 and I have depression. Most days I’m in a lot of emotional pain. I have a father who doesn’t care about me. It’s been hard to focus at school. I can hardly get my work done. I’m in a weird state of mind and I’ve started ignoring all my friends which makes me feel like a terrible person. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t care if I die right now. I don’t care if I get out of bed at all. There’s nothing in my life that’s pushing me on to live.