An inevitable fear

Is anyone else absolutely terrified of death? It goes through my head every single day. Before the pandemic it would pop up a couple times a week but it’s so bad lately. I’ve been terrified of it since I was very young. I get extreme panic attacks and end up struggling to breathe and then sometimes puking from how bad it gets.

I’m so tired of having this fear of something that’s going to happen no matter what. It’s the unknown that’s scary to me. Even typing this out I’m getting anxious.

If anyone has this fear, how do they cope with it? It’s almost impossible to keep it out of my mind. I just can’t deal with this anymore.