How toxic

Today I realised how toxic I was. During my pregnancy and after, I got a lot of negative comments coming from the father of my child and his family. I was stressed. So when I gave birth, I really struggled to not be around my child because I was so emotionally shattered and because I felt like I was going to lose her. They did not threaten her, but I was under the impression that they would take her away me because of what they have said. It made be become really over protective of her for a while and filled with the fear of being replaced her losing her from an early stage. I cried and cried and cried often. I was often left alone with Bub, so it was difficult for me to trust her with anyone who hasn’t put in any effort to look after her. She’s a year a bit now and I’m just realising how much my mindset has ruined my relationship. I’m no longer with him and he has moved on, but I really do love him. I guess my insecurities ruined everything. I couldn’t control any of it and it was really stressing me, tried to communicate all of it but no one ever listened. It broke me.