I’ve always gone back and fourth on if I wanted kids. My main reasoning was because I hate this world. It’s scary as shit. Absolutely no one is safe. Tonight I’m in bed, crying as I hold my belly which is currently the home to me sweet girl. The time has come though. In 30 hours, the world will be here home. This whole pregnancy I was surprised at how good I felt about her safety. But now that the time is near I’m terrified again. Covid-19 is the perfect example of why I’m scared. Bullying is the perfect example. Mental health is the perfect example. There are so many perfect examples as to why having a baby is so freaking scary. I worry everyday and I know it’s not healthy but I also know I’m only gonna worry more and more everyday. School shootings, rape, suicidal kids, bullying, and so many other things are reasons I worry. I’ve talk to my consular about this in the beginning of my pregnancy but like I said it went away. I knew she was safest in my tummy. I’m definitely gonna need to talk to someone once I am feeling physically ready to. Mental health is so important but so overlooked! For anyone that struggles with the same screwed up thoughts, anxiety, paranoia, or any other mental health issues, you’re not alone! It will be okay. And it is okay to seek help! Thinking of all you mommas and your sweet ones during this scary time and everyday ❤️ You’re doing great! Protect your babies with all your might, and know if anything happens, you have them your all!