Lonely

So for the first time in as far as I can think back I’m not interested in anyone. I’ve been in relationships for the past 5 years and then single a year but had some fwb that I thought I was interested in but stuff didn’t work out.

Then I had a real fwb that I had no interest in once so ever...then I moved to my hometown and haven’t had sex in a long long very long time. Last summer when I was home I hooked up with an ex then he got feelings and i told him didn’t feel the same blah blah blah.

He was a terrible boyfriend made me hate myself. But the sex was good. Is it wrong if I try the fwb thing ever though he’s prob gonna catch feelings?

Pros: won’t raise my count, good sex, get to pay him back for making me feel like shit, and I’m his only body so he doesn’t know better

Cons: he’s gonna get hurt, might not help with my loneliness