Disappointed in myself

I turned 21 , 05/04/20... well the night I was drinking wine with my friend , her boyfriend and my boyfriend . My boyfriend and I have been arguing lately and he swore it’s because I’m pregnant . So that night just for the hell of it I was like you know what I’ll take a test so you can shut the hell up .

*A little back story , my boyfriend and I have only been together for 5 months and we are raising his 1 year old daughter and my 1 year old daughter. Covid 19 closed our job , laying us off, and I just got a new job . We are 22 and 21 years old. All while I was scheduled to move into a new hour May 1st. *

I took the first test and it was an instant dye stealer. I figured maybe it could be wrong or the alcohol affected it so I finished the night off drinking tons of water and took three more test that morning . All VERY positive .

He’s basically giving me an ultimatum saying if I keep it then I lose him and if I abort my child then we can wait a few years until our girls get older and we get married and have a child together.

I’m freaking out , things didn’t work out with my first child’s father and I tried SOOOO hard to make it work so she could have two parents and wake up to her mother and father . I don’t want to relive all that with a new person. But I don’t believe in abortion and I’m afraid. Any advise . Sorry it’s so long I needed to get it out .