I hate that I question myself with these 2 questions, everyday &’ every night. WHAT IS MY PURPOSE IN LIFE? &’ WHY AM I HERE? I’m not happy, I feel alone, I’m scared of how bad my thoughts on life are being viewed. I don’t fear anything anymore. I lost my emotions, I feel numb. I have staring spells &’ picture the “what-if”. I let my mind overthink drastically I always think the worst in a sad situation. My mind wanders into thoughts that a normal person probably doesn’t think about. My boyfriend tells me I’m mentally ill, I believe him sometimes but then I realize I only have these moments when I experience a stressful or bad situation. My mind is my own enemy &’ I am afraid one day my thoughts will kill me.