compulsive masturbation? help!

I know this is long but please read it, I need your help please. Thank you 💞! So when I was younger, I was diagnosed with OCD, though I haven’t seemed to struggle much with it in my life. However, when I first started masturbating, it got really bad. I remember having to masturbate even when I didn’t want to because I felt like I just HAD to. I’d be a sweaty mess and I’d want to cry but I couldn’t stop- I remember one night I made myself get up to like 17 times or something, because every time my brain would basically make me keep hitting new numbers, it was miserable. It wasn’t even about pleasure anymore, it was just torture. I started getting really sore down there and it hurt every time, & then I ended up cutting myself I think? near my clit. It stung so bad and lasted a really long time. Then, I finally grew out of that. I got to the point where I was only masturbating maybe once a month, and only if I wanted to. I wasn’t forcing myself. However, I’ve been masturbating more recently and it’s been really good. I’ve been enjoying it, however it’s starting to get to an everyday thing, which I thought wasn’t so bad because it’s healthy, right? then tonight I ended up at that point where I did it once (even though I was really tired, I kind of made myself but whatever) and it was really good. then I went to pee and on the toilet seat I figured I would do it again- it was good still. Then I did it again when I got back into bed, just because I felt like I HAD to get to three (I like odd numbers). At that point I felt awful and I just wanted to sleep but I made myself want to get to five. I forced myself to get to four, which took a long time because my body didn’t want it either, and I definitely couldn’t leave it at four (ew, even numbers). So, I finally got to five. I’m already feeling bad down there and I was so sweaty and tired and miserable:( please help