Does your Hymen disappear with time?

So lost my virginity a few months ago. And I’ve Ben taking it slow, but yesterday I had some rough sex (and to be honest my lady parts kinda hurt today). And I noticed (with a mirror of course) that what used to be my hymen looks “disgusting” like it has no shape. Some random pices of skin here and there sorrounding the vaginal entry And my pussy is the Barbie kind. Like my inner labia is basically non existent. But I feel concerned about wether that could stay like that, or will it reduce? #HelpAGirlOut