Maybe someone else feels the same

I had an early miscarriage nearly 2 years ago and this is the first cycle I feel like I might be pregnant. I've gotten the acidic taste in my throat and mild cramping. Boobs feel heavier and slightly tender. But I actually just cannot bring myself to test. If it's positive I don't want to be attached . The minute I seen the positive the last time I could imagine the baby in my arms and who they would be, I was so excited and it was just ripped away from me as quick as I got it.

My period is 2 days away. Please tell me I'm not the only person who feels like this