So in this past year I gave birth to my first childl. He is everything and I'm raising him as a single mother since his father decided to step out completely. Which is all fine, though obviously not ideal in any way. However as my son grows older and everyone talks about how one day I'll "find a good man to be his father" I realize more and more I definitely don't want to find a man or be found by one again. Like I just know in my heart I am 100% a lesbian I'm just not attracted to men. I've always been more interested in women then men and its always affected my relationships with men obviously because I've been living dishonest with myself but I have a child to raise now and I don't want him growing up thinking happiness means forcing yourself to settle for anything less then true happiness in whatever form that comes along. However I have never openly discussed being a lesbian with any one my family or friends nor anything I've "done in the dark" with men or women outside one one guy and my son's father and I honestly just don't feel the need to. I feel like if I'm interested in pursuing a real relationship with a women I should just be able to do the same thing I did with the two men I had my longest relationships with which was just after 6-7 months introduce them to my family. My close family my entire life has told me they "thought I was gay" never in a mean way and they always add "its cool if you are" just cause I rarely date at all minus those two times really and I've always kept pretty girls around as friends so maybe they just saw the signs before I even did 😂 lmao idk. It's not that I'm not proud or ashamed of being a lesbian I'm just a private person. 🤷🏽‍♀️