I Cried After Sex.

So, I've been with my boyfriend for the last 2 years and he was my first and has been the only guy I've been with intimately. We used to have sex a lot more often in the beginning of the relationship, but a few months in he got to the point of wanting to do it once ever couple weeks or so. Even then, it's only when he initiates. Any time I try to, he doesn't want to which I respect but it does kind of bum me out because it's like it happens every time.

In the two years we've been together, he's never given me an orgasm. Sex always feels like it doesn't last very long and I don't think it really does? (Typically about 10ish minutes) He has to stop frequently otherwise he'll finish too quickly which means that any time I get a chance to start feeling good, it stops immediately after. I completely understand that he needs time, I let him have what he needs.

Where the problem lies with me is here: there's like, nothing that happens other than just that. I'm a touchy person. I like making out and touching and leading into things. He's okay with kissing a couple times, but doesn't like what I do. He also just doesn't touch me. He doesn't do any foreplay to get me super into things. He doesn't ever eat me out, despite me giving him blowjobs often. He doesn't finger me and when he touches my clit, he does it for 5 seconds before stopping and then doesn't touch it again after!

Last night, we started our stuff and we happened to be in a position where he could actually get a good angle to touch me. I kept telling him that it was a really good spot and for the most part he listened and stuck with it. But me squeezing him because of it was too much and he finished. And he stopped touching me.

Then, he we each went to our separate bathrooms to clean up before coming back to bed. I happened to break down into tears though. I was just so sexually frustrated and so upset that I don't get the attention that it takes to get me off. Ever. I went to bed and he said that I sounded disappointed, but I don't want to hurt his feelings and it did feel good while it lasted, so I told him I was just tired.

(It also really sucks because I have a high sex drive and he's constantly groping me and playing with my nipples at random points throughout the day. It turns me on every time and I let him know and ask why he does that if he never starts things afterward and he said just likes messing with me sometimes. He knows that I am extremely sensitive there and that if he were to give it enough attention, I'd for sure get off but he still never does it! Even in bed when we're having sex and thats just all I want.)