My abuser apologized

Ya it was over 7 years ago now. He was my first boyfriend. He was mentally and physically abusive. He never left marks but would constantly threaten my family and me. From him I was mentally abused in my next relationship. I felt broken and my confidence in myself was at an all time low. Then I met the man of my dreams. I’ve worked hard to heal from my past relationships. There are still times I find myself apologizing for small insignificant things as if I will get scolded or told I’m stupid. Today is our 2 year anniversary with our beautiful 9 month old baby girl. And I get a message in the am....my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest. Remembering all the horrible things this man put me through. Being pushed against a wall and choked. Being belittled and called horrible names constantly. No support. Threatening to tell horrible lies to my family. Then I read the message. He had been put through what he had put me through. He had realized how horrible he was and how much he had hurt me. He was glad I had found happiness and a family and just wanted to say how sorry he was.

It took a lot to not remind him of the horrible things. To be angry. How dare he after all these years say something now. But as I thought about that anger and the pain I remembered my daughter, my amazing fiancé. How if my past had gone different I might not have met him and had our child. Yes the abuse hurt. Yes it took years to heal and I still have part to finish healing. But I had found peace and with that apology was the final part to the peace.

Some may find it hard but I accepted his apology and told him I hope he finds his peace. It’s been a crazy day but I feel free from that past. Thank you