I have a narcissistic mother and sociopathic father. Both parents are very bad people. Both alcoholics so abuse is normal to me unfortunately. Started “dating” this crazy guy who is a sociopath and who would lie,try to hurt me and was controlling. I got into it my head that we were going to get married and have kids which is insane. He called me his wife and I think because I wanted to be loved and he was so manipulative and I’m still in a very vulnerable place in my life I just latched on it. I’m still processing. Thank gosh I see the light now. Trying not to blame myself. Need him out of my life. Need time to heal and not fall for that again. I can’t believe that I had it in my head that we were going to get married at have kids! Like what the frig was I thinking? That feels like a different person. I need recommendations on good reading/YouTube videos etc regarding this subject. I’m still vulnerable and will be single for a long time now. Still I want to learn to trust my own judgement. Advice? Book recommendations? I don’t know why I’m blaming myself. He manipulated me. 🤥 but I can’t believe I felt for that shiitake mu