So my husband is not a very nice person when he is home. Oddly when hes out or around family he I supper nice and people love him. With me he is evil treats me like trash constantly calling me a bitch , cunt I don’t do shit . I have a 19 month old a 1 4 month old and a 7 year old. When he does treat me bad i not allowed to say anything or else somehow it’s my fault and psycho bitch . Sexually he gets upset if I tell him I’m tried he will ignore me for the rest of the night . I’ve come to point that I don’t feel love for him anymore I straight out hate him. I feel like he prays on me because I’m vulnerable with the babies and can’t go anywhere and I’m not working. And I’m leeching off him he says . And don’t do anything. I’m a clean freak and I have our home spotless and constantly keeping up with it . I must admit I stoped doing his laundry when he continued to treat me worst . And verbally attack me when he can’t find something like a certain shirt. 

Also I sleep in separate room after him kicking me out of our home serves times . He seems fine with not speaking to me.

What can I do as far a divorce I’m scared he will make my life hell. I have no money or anywhere to go.

And I’ve never given him a reAson to treat me

Bad I’m a passive shy person . I have gotten upset many times when he lies and cheats but in end I’m in the wrong and I need let it go.